Exhausted

I am exhausted to say the least. The last couple of days have been filled with lots of hugs, kisses, memories and of course many, many tears.

On Thursday my mom came to stay with me. It has been an extremely rough couple of days. Friday we had an appointment with a lawyer, to get my mom affairs in order .... living will, medical power of attorney, etc. I guess when a tragedy hits close to home, it makes you re-evaluate your own life. My mom is seeing what Chris' daughter Summer is going through, because he didn't have a will and she doesn't want my brother and I to have to deal with the same thing. The appointment went well, but ended up in tears. We spent the rest of day collecting pictures of Chris to put on tables at the memorial and also for the slideshow that will run during the luncheon. We had copies made of all the pictures and bought frames for all of them. That project ended in tears.

The rest of the weekend we spent shopping. Ugh! Normally I love to shop, but considering that we were shopping for dresses to wear to a memorial, it seemed like such a chore. It is really hard to find a dress when your looking for one. My mom was dead set against wearing black, so I found the most perfect lavendar dress for her to wear. She looks amazing in it. Absolutely beautiful.

Tomorrow is the day of the memorial and I have a pit in my stomach already. I know it is going to be a very emotional day and I hate seeing my mom so upset. It hurts deep. There should be about 300 attendees, so that goes to show how well loved Chris was. I just hope my mom can make it through it.